Declaring that "the cop in me wants to kick my own a--," NYPD Lieutenant Robert Cattani has apologized to his fellow officers for submitting to the demands of protesters to kneel.
On May 29 in Foley Square, a large crowd of protesters chanted "NYPD, take a knee," prompting Cattani and a handful of other officers to comply.
In a June 3 email sent to the Midtown South Precinct in Manhattan, Cattani claims to have experienced sleepless nights over his "horrible decision to give into a crowd of protesters' demands."
Cattani explained that his motivation in striking the symbolic pose was to deescalate a tense situation.
"The conditions prior to the decision to take a knee were very difficult as we were put center stage with the entire crowd chanting," he wrote. "I know I made the wrong decision. We didn't know how the protesters would have reacted if we didn't and were attempting to reduce any extra violence."
Expressing that his decision is one that he "will be shamed and humiliated about for the rest of my life," Cattani said he and three other officers who joined him had hoped that their move to appease the crowd would prevent someone from later "fighting or hurting a cop."
In the email, Cattani made clear that his regrets over kneeling did not change his attitude about the guilt of former Minneapolis police officer Derek Chauvin, whose decision to kneel on the neck of George Floyd during an arrest led to his death.
"We all know that a--hole in Minneapolis was wrong," Cattani wrote.
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